I woke up at 5:30am shocked at the fact that Maddy hasn’t woken up yet… she slept all the way until 6:00am after the midnight feeding! On the down side, she chose to cry continuously again during her nap time and refused to go down to sleep on her own.
I felt so disappointed at her setback, and can’t seem to be joyful at the fact that I got 5 hours of non-stop sleep.
So I have decided not to take all these things so seriously. My responsibility as a mom is to help her reach different milestones and set the limits for her whenever necessary. It’s not my place to ‘make’ her be successful whenever/wherever “I” feel like it. It might take a friend’s baby two days to be sleep trained, but it could very well take two years (oh god, please no) before Maddy is sleep trained (or anything else). She has her own timing for everything.
God didn’t make her so that she will be exactly like me and she will do everything I wish her to do. God delights in her just the way she is… a little chubby, a little stubborn, and a little greedy when it comes to meal time.
I should enjoy her the way she is too. It will be hard when her crying does not stop or when she insists on being fussy for no particular reasons, but I will learn to be patient and thankful… There are so many little blessings she brings me when I forget about all the ‘projects’ I put her on.